Monday, May 22, 2006

hangin in there..

It got me last night.. the anxiety.. Thinking would walk the line if you knew you were going to fail. .. The answer is all logic points to yes and no.. questions would be altered.. time would extend you to study.. Yet all you have is now.. God does not assure you to pass but He gives you the oppurtunity to take the exam now. Come december, i'll take it again.. Hopefully I'll have my liscence within a year.. A walk in the park.. Rough road lang nga.

I have 18 days to go.. para gapangin pagaaral ko. Before my nerves blow..

I feel like a zombie at times.. The walking dead. I dont even know what keeps me moving.. the sugar in my blood.. the ginseng.. i just feel so tired. I awake I feel tired..

The empty streets of morayta is a sight.

I miss the windy night that you walk the street.. closed eye and wakling asleep.. the wind caring you.. flying away to your house arms stretched.

flight of ideas.. word salad..

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Drugs-notes

Alcohol is a CNS (central nervous system) depressant. Lower dose it is a stimulant. Acute intoxication effect includes: nausea and vomiting, slurred speech, impaired motor, impaired memory and decrease social inhibition. It decreases blood pressure, should not be taken with Viagra as this leads to cardiac collapse (heart failure). Alcoholism often goes with malnutrition. As drinkers fore go eating, so the stomache absorbs alcohol faster. Deficiency in thiamine (vit. B1) leads to damage of neurons, leading to wernickes psychosis. Blurring of vision, tunnel vision, impaired motor, personality changes and amnesia.

Cocaine squeezes the hypothalamus (part of the brain) of dopamine (dopamine bath). This is responsible for the euphoric sensation, after wards depression sets in because of the depletion of dopamine.

In the 60s or is it 70s.. During the hippie generation were drugs were legal. The government distributed methadone to combat cocaine. Same effect but without the physical addiction.

ECT- shock theraphy.. Discovered by two Italian physician. Noticed that epileptic patient were never depressed. ECT as therapy for depression works 70% of the time. Risk: Fracture (because of the induced convulsions), Aspiration (Saliva can be lodged in the lungs). Muscle relaxant is given before the procedure, Patient is anatomically position and safely restrained. They are also postion (head is turn sideways to avoid aspiration.

Epilepsy: During an epileptic attack (preferably patient is lying down on the floor). Do not insert any material in the mouth. Observe seizure (duration and type). Do not suction as this can cause hypoxia(depletion of oxygen in the body). Oxygen depletion is one cause of seizures, so better if cause is unknown not to suction patient.

During immunization (vaccines) alcohol is no longer used on the skin. But sterile water, Alcohol affects the potency of live bacteria strains as it touches the needle.

Natural Delivery is now done squatting, standing or sitting.. Lesser medical complication. But this is done non sterile technique, no episiotomy not for first time mothers.

TV ADDICT

Hi I’m Yen.
I’m a addicted to television. I guess it started way back, in my childhood. It’s a coping mechanism for stress, problems, anxiety and boredom. I see like a window out of reality. A window to escape everything. Accessible, cheap and without prescription needed. Grabe parang rugby. Don’t get me wrong I think media is stimulating, well just not for me. I could watch it for 16 hours, 8am to 12am. I can’t perform my ADL (activities of daily living). All I do is watch tv and eat.. Living large as a bum.

With TV time passes so quickly before you know it, its gone. There a lot of days that I just slept away. Days that passed me by.. Unproductive..

My self control is weak. Do you know that the sign of maturity.. is one can delay satisfaction. Ergo my ego is weak.

I miss sports.. Exercise.. Mingling..

I wonder if I need professional help. I wonder if they have a support group for this like AA (Alcoholic Annonymous).

I’m guilty.. I procrastinate.. btw I’m also bankrupt.